Thursday, February 25, 2016

Single Parent Confessions

(Only recently... With the stress of medical questions and concerns)

(Also titled... Late night ramblings of a crazy person :). )

* It gets lonely. Especially at night after the kids are in bed.

* I can more clearly understand the concept of being hyper vigilant. I feel on edge most of the time watching and waiting for signs of 'relapse.'

* Money, while never bountiful previously, has taken on a new meaning. A new feeling of long term insecurity at not having a large savings account to supplement possible future needs and time off work.

* Doctors, once trusted as sources of knowledge and healing, are currently viewed behind a veil of distrust and judgement. Which makes for a scary place to be.

* Friends are held in a state of fragility, with unreasonable insecurities put upon their bonds.

* The need to be busy is hard to quench when not at work. Keeping distracted from my thoughts at times is overwhelming.

* Prayer has become stronger in the face of needing to rely even more on God to alleviate the fear that can threaten to spill over.

* Finding and reading new Bible verses and quotes on positivity has proven helpful.

* A good laugh is worth a million dollars.


ddbush said...

It's so valuable to be able to voice your feelings so eloquently! A gift that is so precious. Nothing I wouldn't give to go back in time and given a second chance at showing my feelings. I learned to hide them but I am now working on that.

maureen said...

As single parents we feel the need to look like we always have it together. I push myself to be more organized, more active, more involved then my friends who are married because I hate when people look at me and think I am that poor single mom! (Too many single women who didn't plan to be single due to divorce, widowed or bad planning seem to make the rest of us look like victims!) I chose this life and I am proud of my children, but everyone needs a break sometimes! We all need the chance to vent and say, "It's tough and I am TIRED!!" I have taken to watching The Middle or any old funny sitcom right before bed, it helps me sleep better to laugh right before I close my eyes!

Jenny said...

I can only imagine from my days as a Navy wife! I wouldn't want to do it full time! Prayers for you.

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