Saturday, October 15, 2011

Cocooning Part 2

If you're reading this I assume you've gotten your invitation, accepted, and are checking in to catch up.

Some of you had asked whether or not we were cocooning due to a referral of a new little one. Unfortunately, no. And due to what is happening, my agency and myself decided to put my adoption on hold. I can't fathom walking the road of an intl adoption any time in the near future, worrying about leaving my kids, traveling, bringing home an older child into a new culture, new language, and then also dealing with what we are currently dealing with.

That isn't to say I'm not still open to a fourth adoption. In fact was contacted THIS WEEK about a semi-local possibility that I'm trying to not get my hopes up for. Just the process of deciding to go forward somewhat in finding out more about this situation was enough to show me that this is something I would still consider on a case by case basis taking my children into consideration even more than I normally would.

We've had some serious things happening in our lives lately. Things that I won't go into detail about due to keeping my children's and our family's privacy. They have been life-changing to say the least and it's caused me to "defriend" approximately 400 people on FB, take this blog private, and put many other privacy "walls" in place as well. Even with this blog private, I did send invites out to some people I don't really know. People I have not over the past "talked" to, even online, and that does worry me. It's so easy now a days for someone to make up a false identity, email, etc and pretend to be who they're not. If I fear something of the sort, then unfortunately anyone I don't "know" will have to be let go.

I HATE making this blog private. I DESPISE the reason I had to do so. I WANT to be "out" there, advocating for children, talking about our experiences as a foster family, adoptive family, HIV + family, etc etc etc, but I just can't chance things. It saddens me to no end! Especially now, when I need support more than ever.

Thank you for asking to follow us on this journey. Thank you for walking our walk with us.

God is good. He has brought us down so many paths for a purpose, especially over the past 14 years which I've seen up close and personal these last few weeks.

Please pray for our family. Please keep my kids in your hearts right now. We are still struggling and most likely will continue to do so for quite some time.

12 comments:

you are in my prayers

Julie said...

I have no idea what is going on and am sad for you and the steps you have had to take- I will continue to pray for your family. I pray for healing for you all and that God will restore the peace you once had when you purchased abig ole van to fill up w childrenwho needed- deserved another chance for a real family. I don't know if He will fill up the van but He will fill you and your children again! Hang in there!! Julie

Jeanie said...

I pray the road you travel gets smoother for all of you.

Barb said...

There are days I would llke to make our blog public too but it is too hard. Too many people have access to it and I prefer my life more private too. Praying for you all during your tough times!

:)De said...

You are all in my prayers.

Peace!

Carol A said...

Hang in there. Your family is in my thoughts and prayers. Thank yoiu for allowibng me to be part of the journey.
Carol Anderson

pmoments81 said...

my prayers go out to you all

Holly said...

I so understand. and I hate it too. But God is a redeeming God and I hold fast to the HOPE that in all things, He is at work for good, even the darkest of times, He is Lord. I LOVE this song by Selah, entitled, Unredeemed. The chorus goes like this" It may be unfulfilled, it may be unrestored, but when anything that's shattered is laid before the Lord just wait and see, it will not be unredeemed." Makes me cry EVERY time! I'm in a similar place in life where I've had to reel everything in, go private and work through some really hard and really unfair yucky stuff. God is good, and I refuse to let the enemy have his way with my family! Praying for you and yours,
Holly

Shantra said...

Lots of prayer for you and your family! I pray for strength, and peace and our Fathers loving arms to hold you up!!!!

I was wondering what happened to you! My prayers are with your family.
Love in Christ,
Kim

Unknown said...

I am so sorry at things have been difficult for you. I have considered going private, but instead moved to wordpress where I can make certain posts private. Praying for you and hope things get better.

Becky said...

Thank you for your kindness in inviting me to continue reading. Praying for you and your family!

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